have mixed feelings

have mixed feelings (about something)

To experience positive and negative emotions simultaneously and often in conflict with one another. I have mixed feelings about starting college this fall: on the one hand, I can't wait to start the next chapter in my education, but, on the other, I will be so sad leaving my friends and family behind. I think I'd be happy there, but there might be better schools for me, so I have mixed feelings.
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have ˌmixed ˈfeelings (about somebody/something)

have both positive and negative feelings (about somebody/something): I’ve got mixed feelings about leaving college — it’s great to finish my studies, but I’m rather worried about finding a job.They had mixed feelings about their new boss. She seemed very pleasant but not very organized.
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