find oneself without
find (oneself) without (someone or something)
To realize that one lacks someone or something, often unintentionally or unexpectedly. My husband must have taken the umbrella out of our car because I found myself without one in the midst of that downpour today.
find oneself without someone or something
to discover that one no longer has someone or something. When I got to the head of the line, I found myself without a cent!