But he said the toll on him and his family had been devastating, adding: "My life's been a waste of time, I've considered a few times topping myself
but I wanted to prove that I'm not this person.
I've considered a few times topping myself
but I wanted to prove while I'm still able that I'm not this person, I'm not that animal in the statements, I wouldn't do that.
Because I can't keep topping myself
because I'll just combust at some point,'' Perry said.
Kery said: "If I had stayed with Mark I would have either overdosed on cocaine or ended up topping myself
because I didn't know how to get out of it.
Sharon was ready to leave me, her two kids who are great, and who I absolutely adore, had had enough, and it was around that time I decided topping myself
was the only way out.
He says: "It's as ifl'm sitting there rocking surrounded by a load of cats contemplating topping myself
I wasn't topping myself
before the Norwich game thinking we were having a lousy time, but results weren't good so getting the win over the champions was good.
The only way I thought I could get it was by topping myself
I was so down I thought of topping myself
," he says.
Five years ago I was in a similar situation and was on the point of topping myself
I had woken up every single night for weeks and crept downstairs to consider the various ways of topping myself
, whether to garrotte myself, shoot myself or whatever.
I might have felt like topping myself
if I'd have had to come in here and talk about how we had a lot of chances, but didn't get a result.
I feel like topping myself
and I am so sorry for my mum and dad.
I would even go as far as to say that if it was a choice between being locked in a room where I was forced to watch Emmerdale and suicide - topping myself
would be the preferable option.
Howey, who has just signed a new four-year deal, said: "I am sure there will be days when I will feel like topping myself