gulp back (one's) tears
To try to stop oneself from crying. I didn't want to have to tell my parents what was going on, so I tried to gulp back my tears. Boy, that funeral was tough. After about five minutes, I couldn't gulp back my tears anymore. I was mortified at the thought of crying in the professor's office, so I gulped back my tears as she tore my paper apart.
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